Some thoughts...
Who we are?




Has it ever occured to you that nature is just a name? That we are just animals? Looking from above, looking at the sky, do you see what we really are? Who are we? What is it that we call human? Yes, we talk, we laugh and we invent. So we are a little smarter than animals. But are we really?
We bring destruction on everything we touch, and then we try to save it, but sometimes, it's too late. Yes, we did invent some good things, but for what purpose? To make it better? For who? Is there a God? I don't know. And, maybe I don't want to know. Our life is so small and unimportant, it's part of a big picture and without us it would still do fine.
Look at the beautiful lands that we destroyed, look at the forests that we brought down and look at the dying species that we, yes we, killed.
No, this is not about protecting the innocent and preserving the greater good. I am angry, with myself, with human kind. Look at the disgrace that we are! We kill, murder life and then we create humane societies to help the "poor"!!!
Building skyhigh buildings, and factories and then crying that the ozone layer hole is increasing! As if nobody knew this would happen!
We conquer physics, for what?! To build atom bombs and other terrifying weapons. We make more weapons "to protect", but how ironic - we kill with them! We bomb cities "in the name of peace"!!! Doesn't anyone remember the crusaides "in the name of Christ"?! Don't we ever learn?
No wonder whoever there is out there, thinks we ought to be stopped.
I am for one, feel ashamed of what people are.
Yes, I know there are good people. But let me come back and define what a good person is. As a matter of a fact, is there such a thing?
Does good mean not do anything bad, get education, start a family, raise children, help others from time to time? Is this it?
Is there anything else to it?
Pathetic. Well, let me tell you something: this is nonsense! Big pile of crap. What is good without knowledge and eagerness to learn and to know? It's a worthless body. A waste.
Did you ever hear of a herd? Without thinking, you are part of a stupid, mass following part of herd. Nothing.
Individuality. Does individuality makes you special? More of a higher class you think? Wrong again. What is individuality anyway? Is it doing everything your way, being different in some way? Oh, who knows? Who has the answers to all the questions in the world? I think we do. We just don't know it yet. And some of us will not only never know, but they'll also never ask.
I think we live a life to find out our answers, and sometimes too late. We hate, we love, we live we die. For what? To find out what we are here for in the first place?
I don't believe it. I don't want to believe it. How can I live my life knowing there is no purpose? But people lived and died for thousands of years. There were great ones as well. Great minds, great leaders, great lovers. They are gone. Time will pass, and so will we. Maybe centuries, maybe thousands of years, but there still will be no answer, why?! Why do we live?
What is it there we are supposed to find? And why are getting all those chances?
And don't tell me, this is God's way, please, oh please, I don't want to hear hypotheses or theories, I want to know! And if you can't tell me, then better say nothing at all. Yes, life. Mother of all creations, bad or good. We live, we love, we laugh and cry, we sing and scream....We are.
Not because we think, and not because we eat or walk or see pictures of ourselves. We are part of universe, part of life - the neverending story. What we call soul and love and all those abstract things we cannot see or touch - this what we are, what remains of us forever when we die.
I want to say something here that may seem as if it doesn't belong, but it does. If you love someone, it's not a choice, it's not a gift and it's not meant to be from above. It's you. Your inner self.
I believe love to be above you or me. All those things we say about love aren't true. We don't live until we love. Love is more than a passion, a duty or a ring on your finger. It's your fire of life.
But it is true that we truly really love only once. We might have something we think is love, and it is not. Love is fire. It warms you and it burns you. It's when you know from every molekule in your body that without this person you are incomplete, when there is no place you'd rather be, but with him, in your arms. When life lights up when he walks in. There are no words to describe love, even the name can't say it all. But don't you believe words like "oh, passion will subside in time, and you'll get used to it". It's wrong. True love never subsides, we do! Truely passionate natures are so rare. We are afraid, or maybe we were never taught of love.
It's a shame.
I am sorry to draw the comparison, but you cannot be told what love is and you cannot start to identify the beauty of it until you see it for yourself. Once you do, you'll never let go. Even if someone else does...
Don't be bitter, don't be sad. You have something you've never had before. You have you! You are one when you find yourself, what you are and what are you made of - you can only see then. You cannot stop loving, don't try to push it deep inside, lock the door and throw the key away.
It's not a river or a sea. It's an ocean. You are the master of it. cherish it as it cherishes you.
Sometimes we make mistakes. Not in choosing, not in loving. In what we say or do. Learning is part of growing. You have to find peace. With yourself. Then and only then will you be in peace with the world.
When you learn to understand yourself, when you learn to be complete with self, you don't need to be told. You stop and love. Love and live. It's not about work, or where we go or how much money we make. These are lies, they cover the truth - the real truth and beauty.
What do you want? Do you understand?
Do you believe?
I am not saying love is the answer. But it's a big part of it. I don't want to repeat well-known phrases and I won't. Let's just say that I have begun to see and understand...Question and seek for answers and never give up. Let go of your fears, of the gates that keep the "society" intact. Open your eyes and see something bigger, something you were meant to see.


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